Next week I am ending my time in a school district I have worked in for the last 16 years. It has been a big decision; one that hasn’t been without doubt, tears and a lot of thinking in the middle of the night. Since making the decision, there continue to be moments of “What am I thinking?!?” but if I’m honest there have been more moments that have confirmed my decision.
It has been painful the last few years as education has changed. Schools no longer look like they did when I started. In some ways, that is probably good as things need to change and evolve but if you ask me (and many of my fellow educators) most of the changes we have seen aren’t positive ones. I can very much say that “stuck” is how I have felt.
For the most part, people haven’t believed me when I say I have resigned from the district. Once I am able to convince them that indeed I have, the next question is always, “What are you going to do?”
What I keep trying to focus on is what I am gained instead of what I am losing. I am going to be teaching three mornings a week at Taelin’s school. A school that reflects what I believe school should look like. I’m going to have more time to write and take photos. I’m going to teach classes for kids at a local art studio. I am going to find the places I belong.
There have been some amazing people that have supported this big change. You know who you are and what you have done. Sadly, your job is probably not over. Not by a long shot. I am so grateful to know that you will be there.
This coming week isn’t going to be easy. Growing pains suck. Luckily, they don’t last forever.